Why are we doing this again? Don't we have enough kids already??

How does an adoptive parent answer the above questions? How can you explain having a heart for the children left as orphans to fend for themselves? How do you explain to someone that you have known for three years that a child you saw in pictures is your daughter? How do you explain the sadness felt at not knowing your child as a baby and the joy of watching thier first steps because you adopted her when she was 8 years old? How do explain how lucky the newborn that just came into the world is because he is wanted and loved by his parents and born in America? How do you reconcile the feelings that you feel over all the unwanted, hurting orphans in the world? I don't know. But, I do know that the love and joy I feel for my adopted children is real and they are just as much my children and meant to be in my family as the ones that I gave birth to. I also know that I had to fight for them to be here just as much as I had to carry my other children in my womb for nine months. I also know that I will fight for this new child as well. Fight through the red-tape of the paperchase, fight through raising the money to bring her home, fight through the convincing of whoever needs to be convinced that she is my daughter...fight through the travel, jet lag, emotional rollercoaster and whatever else comes my way. Because she is born in my heart and she deserves a mother to cherish her and love her as much as my other children.

                                                    Jailynn holding Feng-Feng's hand.