Thursday, October 22, 2009
Do we have room for one more? My heart says yes. The little girl standing next to Jailynn is the third oldest Youxian darling. We know her name and we have heard all about her from Jordyn and Jailynn. Her little face has not left my mind for some time now and I have told myself over and over again that we cannot adopt another child...that we are not adopting her...that I am not her mother. Then...my DH looked at her picture and said..."we should get her too." Well, that did it...my strength and resolute stance just melted away...and thoughts of her continue to flood my heart and mind. I think about the fact that she is in the orphanage and her two best friends and sisters are gone. Who is watching out for her? I think about her at the orphanage and wonder...who does she play with now? I also think about her and wonder...is anyone else thinking of her? Is there another family for her? Is there another Mommy for her? That cares about her and wants to hold her, kiss her, and wipe away her tears? What if God is calling me to be her Mommy too? Do I have room in my heart for one more Youxian Darling? Do I have room in my home for another child? What if I am the only person in the world that cares about what happens to her? I can't get her out of my head. My heart aches for her. Soooo....I decided to take a step and then I asked the agency to see if they can find her file...gulp. Well, they found her file. Her file has been placed in a stack, shoved to the side and placed on hold because she has been waiting a long, long time. Now...we are waiting to see if we can get her file...and now I am praying...asking...and waiting. I am praying that if this is God's will for our family and we are meant to be this little girls family that God will open the doors for us. I am praying that our SW will support us. I am praying that God will provide the finances for another adoption. I am praying that if this is not God's will for our family that another family will step forward to adopt her. Now...we wait for answers. Please, keep our family in your prayers as we wait for our agency to make a decision.
Posted by Melanie at 2:00 AM
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The rest of our family
In case anyone was curious: Here are som pictures of my oldest son, Joey and his family. Joey and Kym have three children: my beloved grandbabies: Hayden 4yrs old, Noah 22 months old, and Phoenix 9 months old. We have been helping Joey and Kym get on their feet and they have been living with us since December. They are now able to get their own place and will move out in April. I will miss them and miss the babies. I will just have to babysit!